Prita

I’m getting my period. So … i’m being bitchy for the last couple of days. And a whiner. Haaaah!!!

Di kantor baru, banyak cewek2 yang menjadi kakak gue. So… actually gue jadi semakin manja. I never had the priviledge for having a sister. My sister died when she was just a day old. Sebenernya gue anak ke-4, dan sebenernya nggak terlalu diharapkan ama orang tua gue. Tapi sewaktu my mum had me, dia selalu berdoa supaya janinnya adalah perempuan!!! And here i am.

Waktu gue teenage, gue anak nakal. Sampe kuliah. Gue nggak pintar tapi gue juga nggak bego2 banget. Seingat gue, peringkat paling besar yang gue punya adalah rangking 15 waktu SMP, abis itu terus gue lumayan lagi. Walaupun nggak sepintar Nadya. Tapi … toh Nadya mau temenan ama gue. Weeeek!!!

Masa kecil pas SD menyenangkan… Sekali. Tapi SMP dan SMA gue suck…I hate my junior and high school time. Kuliah… gue nggak punya temen. Sendiri aja gitu kemana - mana. Waktu gue skripsi dan sidang yang nemenin gue Nadya…

Pernah suatu malam, gue denger papa gue ngobrol ama temennya di telpon kalo anak papa ada 3, dan semuanya laki2!!What he meant was, having me nggak ngebuat dia merasa punya anak perempuan, padahal setahu gue..hhmm gue nggak tomboy2 amat kok..(cieeehhh)… Hihihihi, gue nggak sakit hati. I know my dad really hated me that time.

Gue pernah disiram pake air dingin banget dari kamar mandi ama papa karena berantem ama kakak gue, dimarahin abis2an ama my mum karena kenakalan gue suka ngancurin barang kalo marah …, pergi dari jumat pagi dan baru balik ke rumah senin siang selama kuliah..:), selalu kabur dari rumah if i don’t get what i want, dan opini gue selalu berseberangan sama mereka. Both. But never… ortu gue saying seandainya sister gue yang hidup dan gue nggak perlu ada. :). I can live with that.

Orang tua nggak pernah bisa milih anak. Begitu juga dengan anak. Tapi yang buat perbedaan, adalah anak bisa mencari role model orang tua di luar. Orang tua Nadya adalah role model buat gue. Gue merasa aman berada di rumah mereka, dan gue tahu rasanya diperhatiin dan apa arti love dari yang gue liat dari orang tua Nadya. Rumah gue yang isinya adalah orang tua gue sendiri adalah team work gue. I love them… but I can’t make them as my role model.

Dan gue perlu mencari role model dari kalangan orang tua. Supaya gue percaya bahwa ternyata … marriage life ternyata asik juga… hihihihi…

Hah.. Again, the dating issues and the marriage news from all over the world of my… Mum’s. This month ada 2 temen mama yang anaknya menikah, 1 yang selametan untuk 7 bulan kehamilan anaknya, dan 1 pernikahan dari adik kakak ipar gue.. Bokap gue menangis saat akad nikah melihat para wanita yang seumuran dan lebih muda dari gue itu menikah didampingi ayahnya atau kakaknya buat dengerin calonnya saying those lines. My mum? Oooh of course dia sih udah nangis dari mobilnya sampe di tempat akad. Dia udah terharu ngelihat tendanya, bunganya, kebayanya, and all other printilan pernikahan yang dia suka banget.

My parents are unique. Mereka dijodohin sama ortunya. Mereka nggak pernah kelihatan as a couple yang in-love each other. So it was more like a team work. Their goal was to put all the children in college. Because both of my parents dropped out from college. My dad finished his degree when he’s already had all of us. And my mum, she just leave the college and took care all of us. Since the age of 0..:) until now, i never had any doubts about how my mum raising us. She is something. And my dad… well he’s a good partner for my mum. They never push me for being something they want… until now.. the marriage thingy. But I don’t have to make a fuss about it… ’cause, at this age ih…rasanya gue nggak peduli lagi deh. Dan kayaknya nggak penting, entar juga ada bukan? Kalo emang nggak ada, so? It’s not like i’m going to die because i against perjodohan and flirting toh?

Personally? i envy Angelina Jolie. She took a life that was supposed to be for me… Hihihihi :). First, she’s with Brad Pitt. Got knocked up. Raising those 3 beautiful children. and… No strings attached what so ever.  Again it’s a matter of choice and hers is fantabulous. And… I envy her. And the U.S. for having that authority of knowing all of the airplane schedule around the WORLD. Dasar negara nggak ada kerjaan!!!!

On January 7, 2007 I ate :

- 3 stupid slices of Pizza, 1 big glass of melon float,1 humangest mango juice something at Cavana Resto, 2 bottles of mineral water, and a half glass of ice tea no sugar. Aarrrgghh… i felt so bad to be that full!!

Anyway, it was my birthday. And of course i’m happy. I had a great late lunch with Nanda and Nca.

Awalnya sih asik, masih banyak ketawa ketiwi. Tapi i’ve had it when Nanda and Nca talked about ghosts and that stupid horror movies. Arrghh!! Kalo masalah film yang nakutin gue lebih suka film kayak the haunted, the faculty, or malah scream. Tapi kalo film horor indonesia, takut cing gue. Gila, gue heran kenapa tu orang2 Indo bisa bikin film hantu yang menurut gue lebih serem daripada film2 horor bule… Hiiiiiiiii!

Heheheeh what i like about January, is because suddenly out of nowhere kadang gue dapet ucapan selamat ultah dari orang2 yang gue udah lama nggak ketemu. Dan pada saat birthday, honestly gue menemukan orang2 yang emang bener2 temen gue. Team SMA… Julia, Ewi, & Nca… Wulan.. temen sebangku SMP gue yang ultahnya 5 January, Atit..i’ve been with her for 22 years nggak percaya kan?, Nanda..of course selalu jadi yang pertama nyelametin gue for the last couple of years..Thanks guys. You Rock!!

At this age… i have managed my house, my bills, my maid, my car, my groceries for my house…And still i don’t need a credit card to do all of those stuff. Aaahhh… not forget I’m still in control with my weight. Andddddd… i’m still with people that matter.