Prita

Kok baru tanggal 29 dompet aku udah tipis ya? Ah menyebalkan, belum ketemu Nanda dan rendezvous lagi ma Nca, aku udah harus mengais ngais uang kayak pengemis. Yuck. Hiks. Belum bayar TV kabel, belum bayar tagihan CC tante gue karena beli tas seharga … yah segitulah *malu*, dan yang terutama belum bayar STNK mobil. Hiks … seandainya bayar STNK bisa dicicil kayak tas aku.

Won’t the world be better with cicilan? Ekekekekekekek … semua dicicil. Asik kan. Uang parkir ke Mall pake cicilan, tergantung dari frekuensi ke Mall dalam sebulan misalnya. Dan kalo datengnya melebihi kuota bisa dapet poin gituh. Kan asik tuh. Hu, abis gimana dong, AKU SUKA KE MALL TAPI KALO TIAP PARKIR GUE BAYAR 16 rebu KARENA GUE 8 JAM DISANA KAN NGGAK ADIL … Huh.

Eh gue belum dapet2 dari tanggal 13 September … hiks mami … kenapa dengan diriku ini? Saking takutnya td malem gue sampe bela2in makan sate ayam, siapa tau dengan gue makan daging2an di malam hari (which is something i’ve never done before) gue akan dapet paginya. Tapi apa? Mana? … Paginya gue malah enek nggak karuan dan masih bisa ngerasain hawanya sambel kacang monyet itu di tenggorokan gue. Dan yang plg buruk, badanku anget2 suam2 kuku.

Senin Najes!

Doubts, getting low, dry season, and not really sure on what you’re doing with your spouse or what you so-called feeling. The kinds of issues that most of my friends are dealing now.

Again, relationship thingy.

1 is wishing to dump the guy because different religion, thinking pattern differences, but obviously it was so hard for her to say … “let’s end it now”.

The other already did it because for 2 years that guy didn’t really give what it takes to be a man … well it’s all relative for every individual about what to give and take in a relationship, but in my personal opinion, I think they’re just not meant to be. I’m not really good at relationships. Take-it-for-granted playing too much in here. So I chose that term. They’re just not meant to be. It’s not the same with different religion or thinking pattern differences issues.

Then the guy turned a little bit annoying.

I hate when a person using words like “if only” or “I will” when he or she got dumped just so he or she could get back together.

Because wishing it and making it happen are 2 very different things.

And sometimes to build a relationship, you can not always give it all in to faith. There is a point where you have to make it happen.

If you do not have that willingness, stop promising. Chose celibacy. Won’t hurt anyone and certainly won’t give you a new scar.